Ali, You are Right!!!!

OK, I just have to post this. I'm shocked by the response I've received since starting this blog.  Everyone tells me how honest I'm being.  So, I feel the need to be a little more honest.  My sister and I were talking the other day and she reminded me what a wise choice I made by going back to work.  She's so right!!!

I'm made to work.  I'm made to be social.  I'm made to be busy.  I'm made to teach.  I was NOT made to be a stay at home mom.  Forever, I was in denial about this.  I'm not in denial anymore.  I realize, this is how God made me.  I'm a better mom when I work. I'm a better wife when I work.  I'm using my gifts and talents when I work.  I was just made to work. That doesn't mean I wasn't made to be a mom.  I just wasn't made to be a Stay at Home Mom, and that's OK! For the longest time, I felt that I was a bad mom if I worked.  This year has really taught me a lot. I've learned so much about who I am and who I was made to be.  I'm excepting who I am AND I'm not ashamed or in denial about it anymore.  No more excuses.  I'm Courtney, a mom, a wife, a sister, a friend, a daughter, a teacher and I'M NOT A STAY AT HOME MOM!! And that's OKAY!!! So many of you battle with this, I know.  And for those of you that are made to stay at home, as a mom/dad, that's awesome!!! I think it's great and one of the hardest jobs on earth! I admire those who are stay at home moms/dads.  But I will not feel bad that I'm not. This is HUGE for me.  I'm finally able to breath and relax in knowing who I really am.  I used to always want to please others and fit into what "other" people think I should be.  I'm done with that.  Life's too short!  I'm proud to be a teacher AND a mom.

Yes, my sister, Ali is right.  Making the choice to go back to work this year has been the best decision for me and my family.  It really saved my life.  I was in such a bad place over last summer.  Putting Judy in daycare and going back to work was by far the best thing I've done in a long time.  The best part about it is that I not only get to work, but I get to work with some of the neatest, coolest people ever, I get to teach at an amazing school, and I get to teach some really special kiddos! I'm blessed.  I've made some really great friends with my co-workers, and I enjoy waking up every morning.  My days are filled with joy and when I go home in the evenings, I'm excited to spend time with my family. (Especially now that Judy is being more JOYFUL)!! :) 

I just had to post this, because I know some of you moms/dads are battling within yourselves.  Be who God made you to be! Don't be afraid or worry about what others think.  They need to worry about themselves!!! :)