Dad has cancer. It's a type of bone marrow cancer, related to this Polycythemia Vera. It's a very rare cancer. First thing the doctor said to him was, " We have bad news. The longest you can live with this is up to 10 years." My poor dad. I feel so bad because my mom has been in Florida for Spring Break and no one was there with my dad for the news. That's really all my dad heard from the doctor, along with the word CANCER. None of us were prepared for this. This also has nothing to do with his brain tumor. We are really hurting. Not sure what else to say. Dad starts chemo this week.
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Why me?! Why him??! So many whys! Why has my life turned upside down over the past 2 years?!?! Why?! I'm angry, annoyed, bitter, tired, and feel helpless.Why did I get mugged in my alley, why did I have kidney stones, why did Judy cry for 1 whole year?!?!? I want to help all these people in my life and I can't!! My poor Jackson with his height issues, Judy with her issues, and now my dad. Please pray for our family. I'm not sure we can take much more.
You don't know me, but I have been reading your blog for about a month, and we know some of the same people...but I just had to say something. I have asked that question of "why?" myself. A friend of my who was in my life very briefly gave me a page of a devotion that said that God does NOT choose the weak and faint of heart to go through these intense trials. He chose you and your family for this purpose. I know it may not FEEL like it, but He is still in control. He is not asking why or pacing the floor back and forth with a furrow in his brow. He has His holy arms around you, walking before, behind, and beside you, carrying you through this. These tests will purify you and your family. And it totally sucks that this is happening to you, but you have NO IDEA how much your honesty and openness during these horrible, scary times have touched the lives of those who read your blog. Count yourself lucky that God is taking time to refine and purify you and your family. It may not feel like something special, but I promise you that there is a reason He chose YOU and your family to represent Him in this time. You are handling this all very graciously and humbly. NEVER GIVE UP. Hang on to the promise that there is a reason for this. Remember that we are only here on this earth for a very short time...and you are doing a great job. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteJames 1:2-6 & 12-18 - Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt...Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed.Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.
Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created.
Thank You! What kind words! It amazes me that I have so many people supporting me who don't even know me!! It's such a sweet thing! I'm hanging in there! I won't give up on her! :)
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